Thursday, December 10, 2009
The end-of-year holidays were meant for us Secondary 3's to start preparing for the O Levels. However, I had not made full use of it. (The previous sentence took me 5minutes because I didn't know which to use : have or had. Thanks Dion for clarifying. :D ) It's already December. No point crying over the spilt milk. Wasted my November. But thinking back. Maybe I didn't really waste it. November started off with Chinese O level exams and preperations. Then had chinese orchestra practices and practiced abit more for the Yangqin Grading Exam. Plus there was co camp as well. Class chalet too. I guess November was something more of like, clearing up loose ends of the year.

So, December should be the transition period of a secondary 3 student to a secondary 4 one. But... Why did I find this time to touch maple again? I didn't touch maple for the whole of sec 3. Why now? Just before stepping into sec 4. Plus, now that maple seemingly is back into my life, another large chunk of time had been taken up. However. Am I really back to maple? I'm not training still. Maybe I'm just chatting with friends and spending time? But if so, why am I planning to break open my porcelain pig for this game... It's not just going to be tens. It will be hundreds. Maybe thousands. Would it be worth it?

For a game, would I risk my studies? It's already the O Levels next year. Everything I had worked for these 9 years would be put to the test over a period of a month. Not only that. I have 4 songs to prepare for Music O levels if I were to be taking Higher Music... I have to start preparing soon already. It's not something that I can revise at the last moment and scrape through a passing grade. On top of these, I have to prepare for my Grade 7 Piano and Grade 7 Yangqin. (I could try skipping to grade 8 for yangqin if possible.) With all these already prearranged for me to complete... Can I find time for Maple?

Maybe I can save up my allowance to spend at the end of the year. Maybe I can log in when I'm free to farm some mesos. But when 2011 comes... Many of my current friends would probably have left. What's the point in playing then.

Like I told my friend today: "Maybe it's like a lighthouse. The spotlight just keeps turning. Other's got their chance to shine in this aspect ( Maple ) this time. Maybe it's just not our chance to shine here. Sooner or later, then spotlight will shine down on us. At that moment, we'll busk in it's glory for another aspect in our life. Maybe something greater." Maybe I should just face it. I'm not going to go far in this Maple world. Maybe I should just put maple on hold indefinitely... Till I'm ready to take it on again.

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Learn how to respect others. When someone does something that you don't do because you find it boring and meaningless, it doesn't mean it is. Like a coin - there will always been 2 sides to it. We're just seeing this from 2 different perspectives. And from how I see it, it seems to be inviting, heartwarming. We should try to understand how the other party feel about it before we start making comments.

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I don't really remember if I had post anything similar before about ranting on maple. If I ever did, I think the details and the basis of the rant is basically the same. Haha. I'm experiencing everything All Over Again. (:
Tuesday, December 08, 2009
It's already December and I still have a chunk of homework untouched.
Envious of those who saw the "light" - doing homework early in November, enjoying December.
This is my last chance experiencing this, and I had not yet learn from my mistakes for the past 10 years in my education.
Time to buck up Jin Hong.
(Slap.)

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Though I had not done anything like that before, this is the first.
But I'm still proud to say my record is 15hours.
I took 15hours to bring an Aran - new class in MapleSEA - to level 51 from scratch!
YAY. (:
Well. The only reason in me playing this Aran class is for the LIRIN RING.
Oh well. TIME TO REIGN MYSELF BACK IN.

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They stand by you all the time,
Watching over you through the windows of their soul.
As if they were the Sun, giving off light,
And showering you with an endless stream of warmth.
They silently guard over you
And ask nothing in return.
For your happiness, our sacrifices were worth it.
Thursday, December 03, 2009
Never knew the public was allowed into the SMU area.
Got food stuff, convenience store, salon, food court. Haha.
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After loading the patch, my maple can't be opened. =.="
Disappointed.
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Hate people doing publicity stunts at their blog.
Irritating.
Seriously.
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Nothing much.

Word of the post: (dots.)
Omnipresent : present everywhere at the same time
Tuesday, December 01, 2009
Today I had my Grade 6 Yangqin Grading Examination.
I think I did well.
Because he stopped me in the middle of the songs and ask me to move on to the next section.
Though it may appear that the examiner is unprofessional because they don't seem to take the exam seriously and just stop halfway.
But their rationale is that they've seen enough to judge you and thus they stop you to not waste our time, especially theirs.
But in any case... I don't think it affects me much.

Another fullstop to a burden and anxiety that I had been carrying for the past few days.
I'm always like that, even for my studies.
Not taking my daily practice seriously.
And only wait till the exam is round the corner and I start panicking...
Maybe by panicking at the last minute,
I can get myself to practice and revise sufficiently before the Exam.
But I think if this continues,
My heart won't be able to take the stress. D:
And I should try some time, where I enter the examination hall full of confidence as I had prepared sufficiently long before the exam.
Maybe I can score better than usual?

Still.
Thanks to those who had given me encouragement and wished me good luck.
Haha. I must be making my GRADE 6 EXAM sound like some ultra important event when it is not. =X
Not like I'm the only one in the world taking this exam and I'm the only one making such a big woo-haa over it.
Oh well. Still, THANKS. (:

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It's nearing 1am already.
I think I'll be going back to procrastinating,
Procrastinating about piano.
About homework.
About being bored.
I'm starting to get sick listening to songs.
Sunday, November 29, 2009
Once, I held on to the thread of hope to live on.
Now, these hopes of happiness killed me.
With new threads of light emerging around me, pinning me down,
I seem to appear more helpless.
I can't move no more.
I've no more incentive to fight back.
I've decided to give up.
My future seems bleak.

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-Adapted from Mariah Carey's Memoirs of an Imperfect Angel album: H.A.T.E. U

I wish I could press reset and feel that feeling again.
I sit and press rewind and watch us every night.
Whenever I try to pause it but I can't make it stay.
All I do is experience the pain over and over again.

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Tomorrow's the Yang Qin Grading Exam.
OMIGOSH.
But. I don't think I'll do as bad as I thought I would.
Thanks to my Dear JAILGUARD ;D
For helping me by reminding me of my jailterm D:
And those who had wished me good luck before the exam (:
Really appreciate it.
I think I'll need all the luck I can get too. =X
Hope I won't make much mistakes. D:

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庆幸能认识你　(:
Friday, November 27, 2009
2nd PLOG post.
2009 3-9'09 Class Chalet @ Aranda Country Club, 60 Pasir Ris Drive 3, Room 2313.
25th-27th November 2009

I didn't go on the 25th cause went home to rest and practice abit of yangqin.
Went on the 26th.

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Probably everyone would hate me even more after this chalet cause I made the most noise.
Sorry for dragging FANTS in as well making u seem bad.
But I don't think there's anything wrong still waking FANTS ROOM people up at 8am to prepare to check out.

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Thanks for making this year's class chalet a memorable one :
Everyone who was part of it.
Sorry I couldn't come for the 1st night.

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2 more days to YANGQIN Grade 6 EXAM. OMIGOSH.
If I want to DSA... Then I'd need this distinction.
Hope I can achieve it.
):

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Bet those who were around me during the chalet would remember these 2 lines :
" 'Cause if you run your mouth and brag about this secret rendezvous, I will hunt you down. "
and "I'm gonna treat you like a teddy bear and you won't wanna go nowhere. "

Looking for this song? It's Mariah Carey's Touch My Body. ;D

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1 MORE MONTH before school reopens.
1 MORE MONTH before we in school as Sec 4's.
1 MORE MONTH before we start our engines for the Os.
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
Today, I shall attempt blogging in pictures, using them to tell you of most of my day's events.
SIDE NOTE : If VLOG is a video blog, then would this post be counted as a PLOG? LOL.

Today went for CIP. St. John Flag Day. Went to school at 6.45, waited for awhile before being able to enter the audi. In the audi I went abit crazy. Too stressed maybe. HAHAHA. Must have appeared as some uncouth bastard. Anyways. We got our tins and all and left for THOMSON PLAZA as suggested by Zheng Jie. Guess it wasn't such a great idea cause no one was there and we weren't allowed to ask for donations inside.

Sunday, November 22, 2009
CO Camp is over.
I won't say it's well prepared.
Overall, at some points of time it was messy.
Instructions were not given.
People acted on their own decisions.
Lack of preperation.
Miscommunication.
Heaven's will played a prank on us and let it rain on the first day, almost ruined the Sports Education Programme.

Morning arrived at 6.30.
Saw Jesmond and chatted.
Then Martin was worried cause he made his dad's com tio virus.
Then people started coming in.
We were preparing the games, collecting consent forms and money.
Then started games, lunch, then Sports Education Programme.
It rained ): Didn't affect the INLINE SKATING though they started late too.
ARCHERY was waiting for the instructor to find a place to start.
LAZER QUEST/ COMBAT went all the way out but had to come back to school due to the rain.
But they still managed to play in school.
We had CIRCULAR XIAOZU which we learnt another instrument for fun.
Then we had outdoor cooking.
Benjamin and I got tagged up with Group 3 which consisted of Gerald Wee, Aspen, Yun Long, Mervin, Brian tan, Shi Wei, and 3 primary school boys.
THANKS JEFFREY & NPCC for lending us the solid fuel stoves.
THANKS CHOONGHWEE (Scouts) for lending and teaching us how to use the cannisters.
THANKS TO GROUP 3 for my dinner too. (:
Halfway through went to buy detergent with Yi Long.
Took the change and had bubble tea too. =X
Then we had NIGHT GAMES.
During the games, I think Brandon (one of the primary school boy) kinda got attached to me.
Lent him my torch and all.
Kinda of cute I guess. Though he was apprehensive towards me at first.
He walked to me to return my torch later too. (:
After the games ended, Cheng Jun, Martin, Kuan Hoe and I went to bath.
Was running back because we were late.
After that was reflections and debrief.
Then we had a meeting which started at 12am. =X
Was busy all the way till 1am.
Halfway when I was going to the toilet, a voice in my head say "Your fun won't last long."
Either I heard something or my subconcious mind was warning me because I know we're not prepared.
Slacked around at 3am and woke up at 5 to prepare.
Went out to buy bread spreads.
Had to climb out of school because we forgot to take the gate keys and were lazy.
Luckily on the way back the gate was opened. (:
(NOTE: They open the gate at about 5.50am)
Then started waking our own committee up (: This part was kinda fun.
Then the others woke up and went down to prepare.
Campers started streaming down to assemble.
Had breakfast...
Then had AMAZING RACE.
I was with GROUP 5: Tianze, Ruo Wei, Zhang Hao, Zheng Yan, Hao En, Yi Wei and 2 primary schoolers.
Came back 2nd - but did the worst for Amazing Race because they decided to forfeit the last 2 stations because they heard it was tough and it rained at Paya Lebar MRT.
The groups then had their skit preperations.
Before they started gathering, the usual 4 of us went to bath together again.
MY JEANS WERE DROPPING -.-" But not too badly I guess.
Then seniors started coming back because of the 10th Year Anniversary Celebrations.
Overheard some of them commenting on how skinny Cheng Jun was before.
Don't really recall of him being ultra fat.
Cause I kinda only realised his existence in Sec 3. HAHAHA. (SORRY!)
We gathered in the LT and when the MCs Benjamin and Shawn Lee invited the teachers up to cut the cake,
I went to light up the cake and burnt my thumb ):
No idea why I burnt it and it became like a blister.
Had SOME problem playing PIANO but hope there isn't a problem playing YANGQIN.
(Thanks Hubert for bringing the Kamien CDs for me ;D )
Then they started cutting the cake and all.
I just went out to eat ;D
Wee Kiat came along and he ate Martin's crab claw or something,
And I took a fried prawn for him.
(P.S. I think only the fried prawn was nice. The rest were okay IMO)
Then they had their skit performance and all.
Didn't had a chance to see the other groups,
Except I remember Enzen was going "roar" as a monster because I was sitting on the floor to eat.
Then Yi Der and Joshua Tay (I think) helped to bring the cake out.
Then Enzen came along and he helped to serve the cake.
Was serving the cake and they had the prize giving ceremony.
Then they assembled for preperations for the SPORTS GAMES and MOVIE SCREENING.
Was running around trying to make sure everyone assembles for debrief on time at 11pm.
Then was trying to get the taste right for the fruit punch with Martin and Guo Chang.
The Buffet caterer came to clear the tables at 10+.
Then we had another assembly and debrief.
Before the reflections, each group had 10 pieces of the cake to clear.
They all complained but the thought of them gorging cake down was a little entertaining for my depression. =X
Helped group 9 with 1 piece cause I haven't eaten one.
This time I took part in Group 5's reflections because I was with them for most of the day.
Had some views on their groups performance as well.
I was kinda apologetic too cause I didn't lead the group.
Unlike Cheng Jun who acted as the leader of the group and got the whole group hyped up and ran to the locations.
I couldn't lead the group too.. Cause I already knew the way to 5/6 of the locations cause I went for the recce.
Then dismissed them, with those who wanted to watch movies went for a movie marathon and those who didn't want went to sleep.
Had a meeting till 12plus I think.
Then we went to bath/ change/ watch movie and all.
I wasn't feeling too happy so I went to sit at front porch.
Yi Long and Jia Wei passed by and I felt a little awkward sitting there alone so I went away after they went in to bath.
Walked towards the track, at first thinking of going to below ISH but it kinda stank of the paint and the debris. So walked to canteen as it was deserted.
Then I heard a ball bouncing so I went into ISH and saw Hon Wee and Yi Wei playing basketball.
Went back to canteen... Then Benjamin saw me so we chatted awhile.
Then Xuan Ming came up and was chatting with him. Was already 3 by then.
Cheng Jun and Kuan Hoe went to ISH to join them later.
Martin and Yi Long came up later to check on us.
Martin remembered and finally understood what I meant by "If-I-Go-Missing-At-Night-During-Camp-Don't-Come-And-Find-Me".
HAHAHA.
Jason and Kenneth came up later and with Xuan Ming they were persuading me to sleep.
Seeing that Yu Fan had already finished up the game preperation, I pretended to walk to the bunk and went back to the track.
Visited the Indoor Sports Hall again to find Hon Wee and Yi Wei still there and Enzen found them and joined them as well.
YAY - finally found out how to switch on the ISH lights and fans. Was trying to find the power point the night before to no avail. (:
Wrote a bit of my reflections and watched them play.
Hid there till Kenneth came.
Was preparing to run off but he didn't say anything. (HAHAHA.)
Then Xuan Ming called and he said he found out I was not sleeping cause he went to check on us in our bunks. =X
Went back to CO room rather reluctantly, was hoping for some silence actually, cause I thought they were still playing inside.
When I got back, they were eating/sleeping/discussing games. =X
Jason, Xuan Ming, Kenneth Tay, Lim Qian, Gwyn, Kuan Hoe, Yu Fan. (did I forget anyone?)
Then Enzen came back.
Yi Wei and Hon Wee went to sleep.
Till 5+, then Enzen went back to bunk to rest.
Then Sec 4's and Yu Fan went to sleep awhile.
Me and Kuan Hoe went out to the piano area outside bookshop.
Chatted awhile till Sec 4's awoke at near 7.
So we went to prepare for Day 3 activities.
Brush teeth, change clothes.
According to the sec 4's and LONG they say our last day is the most organised.
It could have been better if each of the 3 days were all like that.
Agreed.
After breakfast, it was NEW GROUP 9 doing the area cleaning.
When the rest of the groups were cleaning up, I saw Wayne Kee walking with his friends at the assembly area.
Maybe because of the lack of sleep I got a little cranky?
Didn't really like his attitude too. (Please change if you read this - which is unlikely)
Scolded him and glared at him till he ran up the canteen to help.
Saw Ren Jie and a few others staring at me. =X Must have been unexpected.
Then they cleared up the canteen till Wilson was satisfied.
Then we proceeded with the Rotational Educational Games.
Though it didn't turn out as planned, I still have to give thanks to Shawn and Joshua for coming up with it overnight at 2am! THANKS! A LOT!
During the Educational Games, I targetted Ye Yang and Wayne again.
I really must have been out of my mind.
"Wayne/ Ye Yang, you strolling in a park ah? FASTER!" LOL.
Then received a call from LIU LAO SHI that we have to clear 5 classrooms ASAP before 9am.
Then Educational Games ended early and we sent them to clear their classes and squeeze into other group's bunks.
SORRY GROUP 6 FOR FLOODING YOUR BUNK! =X Had to send 2 groups into yours.
Then I forgot to tell them the assembly time, so I ran from bunk to bunk.
I told them "8.05 meet downstairs" when it was already 9am.
Mind couldn't think straight.
Went back to clear the confusion. LOL.
I went back to CO room first to get briefed by Yu Fan.
Then Yu Fan said "Go to you stations now!"
Then I saw Kuan Hoe sleeping at a corner.
I went to shake him and called his name but he couldn't wake up.
Plus, his face was pale and the area around his eyes were reddish.
Thought he fainted from fatique or something.
Then Yu Fan just walked over and jerked him up by pulling his hand and his body up.
Kuan Hoe jumped awake and turned in my direction.
Frightened me for awhile.
Then GAMES ROTATIONAL started.
I was doing STATION 1 : Concentration.
Some of them complained that it was boring and all.
To top it off, Martin's station was beside mine and his station was much more exciting and mind challenging.
But at least there were some laughter when someone makes a mistake.
Liven up the mood, mine as well. (:
Then the games ended.
Went back to debrief.
Sent them back to their bunks to clear up and bring their bags down.
Thanks Ren Jie for running up to check 4 toilets if anyone left anything behind! Was a last minute thing when I remembered we forgot the toilets.
Then they gave them chocolates for consolation prizes for the games.
They filled up the FEEDBACK form.
Didn't get to read it.
But I heard the feedback was rather negative for the majority.
But I don't blame them for their honest oppinion.
We really do have much to work on.
Returned them their phones as well.
Then Long Lao Shi came out to do a final debrief.
Thanks to Shawn too for fixing the clogged up sink.
Aparently someone threw broken pieces of a disposable fork into the sink and it got stuck.
Finally everyone got dismissed.
Then it was our time to pack our stuff.
Cleared my bag and we had to arrange back the tables as well.
Later we went to return the Primary School instruments.
Once we were done, Long Lao Shi offered to buy us LUNCH. ;D
Wanted to order Pizza back, but due to the storm they stopped taking orders.
Decided to order Macs instead.
Ordered 16 meals - forgot 2.
Long Lao Shi then gave hers to Shawn and she bought a packet of food for Joshua.
After eating we were playing in the CO Room.
After playing awhile, I got bored and lent Guo Chang's computer to play Spider Solitaire while the rest continued.
I was playing and my vision was getting blurred.
Then I stonned there once in awhile and suddenly remembered I was halfway in a game.
LOL.
Then later Martin stopped playing cause his group went to play soccer/ basketball.
Then he offered to play Stress.
He said he wanted to play cause he wanted to take this chance when I was delirious to win me.
I won the 1st match and lost the 2nd and we got bored.
Jason, Kenneth Tay and Enzen left first.
After that I went to the toilet and came back, feeling kinda hyped up.
Sudden SUGAR RUSH - *hints day 1's 1am-3am group*
And I suggested to Martin to play again.
This time on the Da Gu so there would be a sound effect.
And I wanted to prove to him that even in my condition I would win too. ;D
Won 3/4 of the games I think. HAHAHA.
Was getting hyped up and shouting and banging the drum and all.
Then Kuan Hoe went home so the rest of us started packing up as well.
Cleared the drinks and the packets of food.
Martin locked up and returned the keys.
The group of us left together.
At the bus-stop, I dozed off and dropped my wallet but woke up from the thud.
On the bus, I dozed off and dropped my bag then my phone but woke up as well.
Really tired.
Only 2 hours of sleep the 1st day.
And stayed awake the whole night on the 2nd.
When I reached home, I went to bath then I slept at 4, nearing 5pm.
Slept all the way till 8am in the morning!
15 hours of sleep.
I think this is the most I had slept straight ever. HAHAHA.

Overall. The learning experience was fulfilling.
I guess, the best way to learn is to fail and make mistakes.
If it all went well and we were just taught these skills, we wouldn't be able to remember as well.
Not only that.
I realised I really do have friends who are concerned about me.
Even if I wasn't feeling too enthusiastic throughout the camp they were concerned.
When I wasn't feeling too happy they checked on me and comforted me.
Thanks guys. (: I won't regret taking part in this year's Camp.
And if I do get another chance to replay this, I will still choose the same people to work with.
Through this, we really got to learn how to work with each other more.
Through this, we got to know each other more.
Through this, we really learnt so much.
(: Thanks to all 13 of you again.
Not forgetting the Sec 4's that came back.
Also for those who attended the camp.
To group 5 too, for being concerned of me during the Amazing Race. (:

I guess this puts an end to the
ANNUAL CO CAMP CUM 10th YEAR ANNIVERSARY 2009.
(:

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Going out now. Will continue with my random parts of my blog posts later or at night. (:
Byes. (:
Thursday, November 19, 2009
MIA-ing 3 days for CO CAMP .
(:

won't be taking much pictures - ain't a photo guy.
maybe i won't be taking any at all .

tata-//
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
I wanted to update more, but BLOGGER lags for me after 8-9pm till even 12am. ):
So either I start blogging earlier, or even later.

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Mariah Carey's "Through The Rain" is quite a nice song.
I guess it's a song which tells us to just stand strong, and get past the rain.
No matter what other's say, as long as we have the determination,
We'll make it past the darkest storms; We'll make it through the rain.

With every chorus, she changes the style she uses to sing it.
The first chorus is all using falsetto.
The second time it appears, the first few words are belted, then changed into falsetto.
This continues for the rest of the lines in the chorus.
Then the third time it appears, all the words are now belted.
Then if I'm not wrong it changes key the next time it appears....
(I HATE THIS - WHY CAN'T I COMFIRM WHETHER IT DID OR NOT. IT JUST FEELS STRONGER... MY EARS AREN'T GOOD ENOUGH ): I CAN'T HEAR THE KEY MODULATION.)
So it starts off a bit airy, weak falsetto.
Then it starts getting stronger.
Which also reflects the determination and will of the singer getting stronger to brave the rain.

At least this is how I interpret it.
TALENTED singer!
I'M HAVING A MARIAH CAREY CRAZE.
She's still rather hot at her age. (:
But her voice is deteriorating already.
But she can still hit the WHISTLE REGISTER.
19 years of her carreer had passed.
Quite successful.
Haha.

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CO Camp is in about 2 days.
Yangqin Exam is in 13 days.
Oh.
My.
God.
I haven't been practicing.
):
SOMEONE WAKE ME UP.
(slap slap)

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What if the world really ends in 2012?
I haven't accomplished much.
I've so much to make up to my friends.
I've still so much more to achieve.
If the world is really ending in 2012.
I'd probably apologise to every single one I had known for making their lives miserable in one way or another.
Really.
I don't think I'm a good person.

I wan't to watch 2012 soon.
Should be watching next week with FANTS. (:
Or... someone else invite me out to catch it before next week! ;D
(Psst... Maybe the CO people will sneak out during CO Camp to catch a midnight movie of 2012? ;D)

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I can't sleep in the afternoon recently.
Though I tried.
Layed there and tossed and turned for 2 hours.
And I don't feel like sleeping early at night as well though.
Sleeping at 11, 12+.

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BLOG POST QUOTE :

"I'm addicted to you: you're my sleeping pill - I can't get to sleep without thinking of you at night. You've crept into my heart and your veins had already intertwined with mine. Our hearts beat as one, and your heartbeat had become my soothing lullaby."

*YUCK*.
This is disgusting. But I'll work on it =.=
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